R.I.P. Jay & Kay Pop

A fond farewell to my babies, Jay Pop (10 July – 19 Aug 2010) and Kay Pop (10 July – 21 Aug 2010). I will miss you very, very much and I can’t stop imagining what you went through in your last moments. My heart is broken when I think of you, but Heaven is a better place to be in.

Jay Pop

Kay Pop

The weekend – Langkawi with the family – was a wonderful, much needed, much appreciated break. It’s been 10 years since we last went on a family holiday and 10 years since I last visited to Malaysia. Niceee. Until my family gets back tomorrow, I’ll have the house all to myself… it’s like college days all over again when I get to be alone and do all my rubbish.

Happened to switch on the tv and the youth olympic games was on – track and field. Ah, it brought back memories of the good old glorious days. I’m now wondering what happened to my spikes? I don’t remember seeing them go. Anyway, was trying to observe and learn good running techinques from the Kenyans. It’s easy to tell who’s gonna win by just watching running style, posture, and stride. And the girls are all so tiny! I miss being 16/17.

Anyway, no real heart to write now… gonna go to the gym to run on the treadmill since running with the office gang was self-called-off cus I didn’twanna ruin my new shoes in the rain. Going to run and run my thoughts dry. No wait, or better still, I think I’ll go play the piano instead. Perhaps both.

ever wondered what if…?

so pa came and left. it was a really awesome week, and I’m glad I got the chance to spend time and catch up with my dad. we went up to the blue mountains monday and tues and oh myy what a very good break. something I’ve been needing to do to get out of sydney if only for abit. it’s absolutely beautiful up there, it’s quiet, there’s plenty of nature, it’s laidback. I regret that I didn’t do this weekend-out-of-syd more often in the time that I’ve been here, especially when I had mr. wiggles green machine (I miss him sooo much, and dad never got to ride in him). but I vow to get out more from now on. I’m going to melbourne next week! my grand outback safari plans backfired because I realised going ahead with it would really be running it thin with my allowance. well, the next time I see my dad, I’ll be officially done with school. I’m waiting in anticipation.

anyway. I’ve always wondered (probably more than for my own good) what if I had studied at macquarie/uillinois/usyd instead of sucky old unsw. today me dad went to visit some friends at the macquarie uni campus so I no doubt jumped at the opportunity to pay the place a visit. good chance? wrong. I should never have… because now I totally want to kick myself in the butt for not going to macquarie. the campus is beee-yoooteeefuull and the department I would have been in seems to be thriving- in huge contrast to the sad little ling dept here which, according to my dad (and his friend, david butt), has definitely seen better days. how I wishhh I had gone to macquarie and so wishes my dad too. except at the time the biggest deciding factor was that retard mqu asked for a $10,000 admission fee. SERIOUSLY you have got to be kidding me. so that didn’t work out and… the rest is history.

did I mention that on the way out to the subway (mqu has a station of its own!!!) I spotted something else which only made me regret even more. I saw the ice rink. yes, right on the edge of mqu’s campus. the ONLY freaking ice rink in the whole of sydney sits right by macquarie uni. I might as well give myself two tight slaps. but alas, it’s too late to regret, and no point lamenting. I have 6 more weeks of school and that’s that. (I must also mention that I’ve self-declared this week as a holiday, so I have a 2 week break which began last friday. haha)

it’s no longer what if but if only…… life is full of choices, full of regret? but if we only look ahead, there’s nothing to regret about.

I should prolly go t o sleep after this..

no sleep in 2 days, and I’m still blogging at this time when I should be catching up on my sleep. I must be becoming like kif! ha ha

anyway, as is my habit of reflection on every last-day-of-something, I just wanted to take this time to really thank GOD for all the wonderful things He’s given me. I can’t ever look back and regret on anything even though sometimes I might feel like doing so, cuz the knowledge that He had everything planned out for me right from the beginning makes me so , so very thankful for all that I’ve encountered along the way.

if ever asked if I would go back and change something from the past, I don’t think I would- because that would mean that I would not have met with some of the most wonderful things that have happened to me.

thanks God.