unravelling the mysteries of my sad life by unwinding with ravel and co.

thats my sad attempt at trying to be clever with words. sigh

anyway I’ve been busy with school work and whatnot. but its also partially because somebody here was a genius and went out playing everyday from thurs-sunday… fri night was the LONDON PHILLIE ORCHIE! :) okay they were great but not that great. they did good with the ravel piano concerto (ah, very gershwinny piece) but with rach I felt they were not rach enough!! their rach felt powerful but so.. cheery. which was very wrong.

the night before.. thurs night… I went out with some friends to celebrate the end of a horribly merciless school week. we had dinner at an all-you-can-eat sushi bar. it made me so dreadfully full but there I had to go and have dessert at max brenners. choc fondue fruits and ice cream. which, after taking my last bite, I promptly got up and ran to the bathroom to barf. what a traumatising experience. I felt like a bulimic. I really need to stop eating so much… need to know when to stop and not be a goldfish.

saturday was soooooo awesome because… I WENT ICE SKATING. I miss the ice so damned much it felt really good to step out on the ice albeit wearing skates with no edges. and the fact that it took me more than an hour to get to the only ice rink in sydney. north shore my friend. but oh well. ahhh I miss hockey so much.. and miss my sticks fuzzy, wuzzy and shorty a lot. I need to practise some stick handling when I get back to singapore!

sunday. browsed abit at kinokuniya and watched a gold class movie after church. well for the experience. and it was julie and julia (the movie) which really inspired me to cook more but eat less.

and it’s confirmed. I shall be going to melbourne (again!) and tasmania for a mini grad trip after the exams! :) Ireally closed both eyes and booked the tickets lest I remained indecisive till the end..

so thats that. and yeap, 10 days till the end of school forever. not factoring in exams, that is. 23 days till I’m a grad. the end of being a broke college student and the beginning of life as a broke adult.

pumpkin soup + carb overload

I freaking ate 4 slices of bread because the niceee fresh bread I just bought was so soft and delicious… if I hadn’t told myself how fat I already was I would probably have finished up 1 out of 2 loaves that I bought. Yes and I ate at least 10 cubes of cheese, a number of lamingtons, chocolate chip cookies, and timtams, and several slices of fruit cake after church today.

I am so filled to the brim with carbs now I’ll probably doze off writing my paper. One failed all-nighter coming right up yo.

1 down

ooooh ahh *cracks neck, then back, then fingers*

psych lab report: done.

let’s see if I can achieve a miracle and finish my history film review by tonite before jetting off to merrruuuuubournee tmr! yea! omg. I still haven’t told my mother about my trip.

anyway I’m taking a breather now while waiting for my so called calzone to bake in the oven. I hope it”ll be nice, because it’s only the 2nd meal I’ll be having today and prob the last.,..

meanwhile I think I should strum a little on my purple ukulele. ha. bought it last week when I was in the blue mountains. tempted by the fact that I did not have any instrument with me in aussie (seeing as to how my guitar committed suicide 2 years ago now), I happily strolled in to have a casual look and moments later came out with my prized possession. haha. I can play a few songs on it already and for the past 6 days have been holding my own praise andworship sessions in my room lol.

augh. when I imagine myself with a guitar (now uke) setting off somewhere on trip in true hobo busker style, I imagine loading my backpack, guitar and whatnot into a car trunk..er, boot. AND THEN I THINK OF POOR LIL WIGGLES :( I wonder where he is now I hope he’s doing all fine. ever so often I still regret that I no longer have him and have to jostle with the crazy bus crowds yuckkk. people always say that it’s better to have known something and had it taken away than to not have known at all. I beg to differ. after having experienced the pleasure and joys of wiggles ownership, I BITTERLY regret that a wiggleless life is completely inconvenient and intolerable. sigh. anyhow.

and I thought that if I ever bought another car, I would name it giggles. heehee

oh yeah. hellloo lil friend if you’re reading this! :)

I find it funny that just a day after discovering her blog address on my computer (how it came to be there I shall never know) I should speak to her online and now… we can get updates on each other’s lives albeit indirectly via weblog. hohoho

oh dear me

I suddenly remembered the psych thingey we studied in first year… about the initial excitement of being in a new place, then soon after comes shock, then homesickness sets in, etc. oh dearie me… for all I know it might just happen to me, knowing how I’m inclined to experience bouts of melancholy every now and then. still don’t know why it happens, but it does. oh I should grow up, haha.

anyway, yours truly overate again. what’s new. so I cancelled my meal plan for next week and will see how things go. will probably change it back again by the end of the week cus that will be the last time I can change it, but next week is just to take a short ‘hiatus’ from all the unhealthy overstuffing of my poor tortured self.

went to check out the state-of-the-art gym this evening too. it’s truly AWESOME (the word has been misused so often, but seriously, it really applies in this instance.) 4 floors of awesome gym equipment, high tech (ie. touch screens, iPod plug-ins, tv, etc)! just like the kind you find in the fullerton hotel gym except that is has 100 times as many machines. seriously. I was awestruck. I still am. and you know what?? it’s FREE. say it with me. F-R-E-Eeeeeeeeeee. what the…?! freaking uni of no-student-welfare has a pathetic unigym which costs $8 per visit and the freaking equipment is rusty and old. what the heck. the pool costs a heck lot too and it’s not even heated. here… it’s free free freeeeeee…. EVERYTHING!!! indoor pool, outdoor pool… everything!! okay. with the exception of special facilities like the climbing wall and stuff you just have to pay a tiny little fee. okay wadda heck man.

okay and finally, my favourite place (now practically my second home) the ice arena, is also free for public skates or if you require skates, rental is only $1. wow… seriously they have it good here. some people really don’t realise how lucky they are…

work, study, and fat

juz got home from work at the cricket ground! I am so sick of chips and fish and meat pie even though I don’t even eat meat pie. brought home a ton of loot though, for my housemates. too bad sad case cj friend left already or u can join in the free meat pie feast. my wrist is very sore from scooping chips all night long, and my stomach is even more sore from nibbling on them all night long.

work was pretty fun anyway. really appreciate this job that sends me everywhere, I always get to meet new pple, see new places. the in-charge today was this young girl named deborah who’s 19 and studying at UTS and she talks alot. it makes working fun. and the cook guy actuallly works at matsuya!! ha ha! we almost went there last nite for dinner. so cool. if I had a choice, I’d choose to be a kitchen hand next time. I had a whale of a time making the food. and I will have a whale of a time making food forever and ever… I wanna work in a sushi restaurant or something. say, I should fulfill my dad’s dream for me to become a fugu chef. ha ha.

anyway, I am now $550 poorer. I sent wiggles to the workshop this morning to get his alternator fixed. well I’m just glad he’s alright now.. phew. but pumping money into the little thing I’m about to sell didn’t make me feel exactly elated. at least I can drive to church tomorrow with a peace of mind that wiggles isn’t going to die on the road.

this weeks gonna be a dreader. I know it’s gonna whizz by, and yet, it’s gonna be my longest week here by far. research project I haven’t started on, psych exam I haven’t studied for, Jap exam I wanna score HD for. I don’t know if I can handle it, or if I’ll even survive..

okay I’m gonna shower now and get the smell of chips and meat pie off me… then I’ll settle down, practise some Jap by writing in my JAP BLOG(!!) then take some notes for my research proj then study for psych.

wiggles again

no giggles this time though.

wiggles has a serious problem, and it’s gonna set me back by 550 buckaroos. sigh !!

it’s so hard to believe,…

my mother’s so wise though. she helped me see why I should thank God still.

then I remembered a lesson I learnt in Bible study last year… “in everything, give thanks”

hard to believe, hard to practice at times like this… but I will try!

anyway I’m gonna go ahead and fix wiggles, see if Jade (the girl who wants to buy my car) and I can work out something. anyway, it’s all good for her anyway. maybe God let me fix it cuz it’d be worse if I’d sold wiggles to her and this problem arose just days after she’d bought him?? O.O

anyway, sad case cj friend has left. so classic, ’sad case cj friend got sad case send-off…’ byebye!

gotta study now. tonite, sure gonna binge. i’m dead meat.

hais!

feeling a tad depressed and in pain now. my ’shopping therapy’ is on hold- and by shopping therapy I mean SUPERMARKET shopping becuase I hate all other shopping. these days if I’m in the mart I merely head in for bread and milk and walk straight out lest I end up seeing other stuff and buying them. I’m currently overstocked on food, seeing as to how I’ll be leaving oz in under 6 weeks. so that means I can’t afford to buy anymore food, thus leaving me void of my favourite hobby.

but alas, I shall drown my sorrows in studies, watch Japanese dramas over dinner, and pour out my soul writing in my Jap blog.

the intensity is heating up.