Belated R.I.P. Mango Pop

Mango Pop was literally the pop of all the little blue puddings ever born under my (and Brenda’s) care. And to think the guy at the pet shop first assured us that blue puddings couldn’t reproduce easily.

Alas now, they have all passed on to a better place, and Mango Pop was the longest and oldest survivor of them all.

Missing you (and all your family) very much. You and all the lil ones and Lolly are fondly missed.

RIP Mango Pop (November 2009 – 2 October 2011)

Mango Pop (extreme left) and in November 2010

Something Beautiful

In your ocean, I’m ankle deep
I feel the waves crashin’ on my feet
It’s like I know where I need to be
But I can’t figure out, yeah I can’t figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your tide rushes over me
There’s only one way to figure out
Will ya let me drown, will ya let me drown

And the water is rising quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can’t be sure when it will subside
So I won’t leave your side, no I can’t leave your side

In a daydream, I couldn’t live like this
I wouldn’t stop until I found something beautiful
When I wake up, and all i want i have
You know it’s still not what i need something beautiful

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, ’cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I’m in reach
‘Cause I am down on my knees, I’m waiting for something beautiful

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I’ve always said that music is magical. You listen to it and suddenly, poof, you’re living in another world, transported back in time. Did it really mean that much to you?

Today is one of those days where I feel at peace. cus God comforted me so I know I have His peace. This year has really been one of learning, growing and changing the way I see things and what I used to think I knew. And for that, I’m very thankful that He is helping me to mature. Most importantly, I’ve learnt that there is only one source. I guess I always kinda knew that but allowed myself to look elsewhere too.

It’s as cold as winter in my veins but I long to feel the summer rain.

Aahhhhhh

It’s October.

Looking back, I think the core experiences which have moulded me into who I am today are the ones in which He humbled me. Agonising as they might have seemed at the time, they were necessary to have me understand now what to value and what not to.

I have to be eternally grateful for – His divine guidance aside – the wisdom and guidance He provided through both my parents. I thank God for a cool dad who has always trusted and given me ample liberty to make my own choices from when I can remember, though of course not without due guidance; my mom for being the healthy balance and always giving me advice and support, and even if at times painful, for putting her foot down when she deemed necessary.

I’ve always believed that God puts us through things He knows we can handle. So surely we must have had to gain something significant out of it for Him to have put us through it all in the first place.

And so again, bring me to my knees