my friend, you know how this all ends

this morning I randomly opened my special memories treasure chest. amongst the many precious things, I found an envelope from Peixian- it contained a letter from her dated 6 years back, my flying cert from the yfc, and a brochure from the rsaf. so I had a look through it.

I am currently nursing a far-fetched dream of flying f14s and whatnot, cept that I would probably not even make it past the medical exams this time round. but if I am ever gonna pursue this flying dream, I don’t have very much time left to make up my mind or even try for it. it really does take a lot to fly and get your wings. so you can imagine that I have much respect for military pilots. and well, commercial pilots too of course.

my friend and I have been spending our days in the office drawing up retirement plans for a farmhouse (which she would design, visual comm girl) that functions on green energy with vast land for cornfields and a runway. assuming of course, that I would own one of those classic biplanes and a license by then :D

I guess the next best thing for now would be to leave this longing for the sky to my fantasies. and thus, I shall leave you with this-

When once you have tasted flight,
you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward,
for there you have been,
and there you will always long to return.
Leonardo Da Vinci

Ps. big Wiley run tomorrow. I hope to run 60 flat or less… :S

Before the morning

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there’s a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can’t see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you’ll see, you’ll see

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
’cause the pain you’ve been feeling,
can’t compare to the joy that’s coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you’ve been feeling,
it’s just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you’re going,
you just don’t know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there’s good for those who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you’ll see the bigger picture

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things work in the most mysterious ways. like when this was the first song that played onmy ipod when I needed to hear it most.

long weekends are when everything comes crashing down at the same time – too much time for stupid thoughts.

iPod shuffle: HUmoresque!

listening to dvorak’s awesome humoreske no. 7 aaah – it made me pull out my violin. I can’t even play a decent vibrato now.. this is crap. I think imma make it a point to practise at least 15.. okay maybe 5 minutes a day. it’s so sad that everything I’ve learnt in the past is going to waste, seriously. I feel absolutely USELESS.

and speaking of useless, I recently researched and found out that it would now cost me 30 grand to get my muchdreamedof PPL. should have pressed on and completed it when I was still in the syfc. for free. plenty of reason to be upset with my self. my foolish, young self. maybe I’ll just need to wait till I retire to own my own jet and fly in some far out rural cornfield. like in pearl harbour (the movie). like in… JAG.

harmon rabb junior. the reason for my re-obsession with flying. I was at the esplanade library on friday evening when I saw the JAG DVD OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! season 2 and s3 are now available at the library! can you imagine! my most favourite show ever! so yeap. borrowed s2 :) :) and I love harm!! he’s so cool. for all I know (but can’t remember), he might have been the reason I even started flying :) hm. maybe I should join the airforce? lol. no. I won’t. but joining an airline is still not crossed out on my list even though I’m now with wiley and happy.\

happy. ^^